Now, quick quiz: Which of these haven’t you heard a sermon
about in the past year (or, like me, the past 22 years)? If you were
ranking these in order of relative badness, which one would end up at, or at
least near, the bottom?
Let’s disregard the fact that you were predisposed to answer
gluttony because of the title of this post. And maybe your experience is
different than mine, but from what I’ve seen, Christians tend to conveniently
ignore the sin of gluttony.
The questions is, why? Maybe we’re trying to get away from
the stereotype of stern legalists who can’t appreciate the pleasure of enjoying
a good meal. Maybe we too closely associate eating with “fellowship”—basically talking
with other Christians over some form of food—to think of it in a negative
context (long live the potluck!). Maybe we’re too busy posting pictures of the
cheesecakes we just made on Instagram or pinning bacon recipes.
I made and ate this cheesecake last week. And I don't think that was gluttony. |
Or maybe we’re really not sure what gluttony is, exactly.
Only those people on Biggest Loser struggle
with it, right? It’s about being grossly overweight and making poor life
choices in regard to how much you shove down at once (except at Thanksgiving,
because that’s a holiday where we thank God for the ability to shove down too
much at once, so he’s got to be okay with it).
You have to wonder, though: if we don’t struggle with
gluttony at the time in history when we have more resources, food and
otherwise, available than we ever have in the past, should we just erase this
one from the Big Seven?
I’m going to say no, and here’s why: I am a glutton.
For one of my classes, we had to take a detailed personality
test that focused more on our weaknesses than our strengths, which I like,
because all Myers-Briggs tells me is that I, as an ENFP, am a wonderful person
who everyone should want to be friends with. As I read my profile, I found
myself nodding along at everything that it said about me, good and bad. Until I
got to the major sin I was supposed to struggle with: gluttony.
Sorry, but someone in the research department got this one
messed up. Out of the Big Seven, gluttony would be last on my list. I’ve always
taken a bit of pride in the fact that I don’t obsess over my weight or dress
size. Sure, I have those moments where I look in the mirror and wish I could be
X pounds lighter, but the rational part of my brain kicks in instantly and
reminds me not to be an idiot. I exercise regularly even though I hate it. I
grudging eat my vegetables, have pretty good self-control when it comes to that
second brownie, and have recently discovered that my stomach no longer has much
tolerance for grease in any form, even Chick-fil-A sandwiches.
I am many things, I decided, but I am not a glutton.
Except then I actually thought about it and looked at my
life (always a dangerous thing), and decided that maybe I am.
There were several things that jumped out at me, but here’s
one: I realized that there was a pattern to the meals where I bypassed dessert.
When I was with my friends, particularly the residents of Gerig Hall—the ones
who knew me and loved me in spite, or perhaps because, of my many quirks—I felt
accepted, knew I would have a fun conversation, and rarely got frustrated or
bored. I would pass the desserts on the way out and not snag one, because
self-control was easy on those days.
When I ate with others, half-friends and sort-of
acquaintances, I would tell myself that I deserved dessert, that I needed it to
make up for the half-hour of conversation about some movie I hadn’t seen or
some drama I didn’t care about, peppered with significant glances at couples
and supposed couples around the dining commons. There was a refuge in that
simple chocolate chip cookie that I went to, without fail, when I needed a
friend and couldn’t find one.
Same thing when it had been a long and frustrating day, when
I was angry at someone and couldn’t resolve it, or when I just plain felt tired.
I knew that mint chocolate chip ice cream wouldn’t fix everything, but at least
it would make me feel better. Looking back on it, I am convinced that self-medicating
with sugar and fat in an attempt to fix spiritual problems is a simple,
benign-looking form of gluttony.
I just finished reading Steve Almond’s book Candyfreaks, which I secretly and entirely
without official approval call Chocolate
Ecclesiastes. The book is part nostalgic tour through candy factories and
part critique on our monopoly-based consumer culture. But it’s also about Mr.
Almond looking for—and not finding—happiness through candy. Several melancholy
sections take you away from the cheery wrappers and salivatingly beautiful
descriptions of the chocolate-making process to say that candy, in the end,
can’t make the problems go away. It can’t make up for a dad who didn’t care,
for lovers who walked out, for dreams that never became reality. But we turn to
it anyway.
Food fills our stomachs, but not our souls. It’s not meant
to, and when we become dependent on it, when we trust in it, even in little
ways like using it to help us cope with the disappointments of life, it becomes
an idol. That’s gluttony. So is cramming our lives full of fun or success or
academic knowledge or popularity or bucket list experiences and expecting that
to make life worth living, or at least less lonely. Gluttony is taking a good
thing that is not God and expecting to either find yourself or lose yourself in
it. It’s the excess of chasing after heavenly goals with earthly things.
So, there you go. If you were expecting me to blast away
against the fast food industry or make you feel guilty for enjoying a brownie
sundae, sorry to disappoint. But I don’t think that’s where the real problem
is.
Let’s talk about gluttony as idolatry. Let’s think about it.
Let’s fight back against it, because it has the same slowly corroding effect on
our relationship with God as any other sin.
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